It’s funny, as I am sitting here looking back over my life, I never started out to be a world renowned anything or a leader. Some times circumstance and situations chooses us, sometimes we are thrown into the situation or spotlight whether we want to be there are not.
Sometimes we are guided, pushed, shoved and even prodded into taking steps that we know will make a difference and put us out there. But I guess it is as for many “our time” to take a specific path we are guided and directed to. Even though we may have doubts, fears or even not wanting to be out in the pubic because deep down inside no one knows the real you.
The shy quiet unobtrusive child who would love no more than to stay hidden in that old school hallway coat closet, way back in the darkened corner where adult coats were hanging, where I could hide behind a big coat out of fear and shyness, to be myself and never have to put out any effort, or somehow find yourself pushed right out there front and center where I did something believing in the guidance I was given to go this particular way or do this particular thing that you know would change things. The change could be for the good and better or it can be bad or making things worse.
It is only though the spiritual connections that the most profound things happen to us and where we never started out to make an impact, suddenly we were drawn in and put into the limelight. We found ourselves on this stage where everyone is watching us. The chairs are all packed, the aisles are all full, there is barely any breathing room. All eyes are on you and what you will do next.
I never thought as I was raising my small children, getting my doctrine in psychology, or working to get my bar exams to be an attorney, that unforetold circumstances and situations came about from that little shy quiet child, to thrusted out into the public with tremendous insights, ancient knowledge and yes amazing gifts and abilities that I was born with, but never expected to fully develop, not alone be doing what I am today.
It is only looking back to situations that I have been put in that made me develop into who I am today. As I look back to my first contact with the angels in my near death experience at the age of 6, this was the beginning of what was to be an extraordinary and exceptional life.
It is truly interesting in looking back how incidents shaped you or your life, from my near death drowning experience, to different things occurring as a child to teen and then from teen into adult hood.
It is with these experiences and those going into adulthood that lead me away from being a licensed psychologist, heading for law and wanting to be an attorney, studying behind the scenes keeping it quite while still using my gifts behind the scenes to help law enforcement, or whatever information and insights came to me, to share it with the right people.
I never knew that my gifts would be in the limelight and I didn’t chose it, it choose me. Situations occurred during this period when I was working at a law firm as secretary/receptionist while keeping my educational pursuits as an attorney behind the scenes and hidden, I did work for this law firm and I shared my insights on cases.
I was given jobs which I didn’t mind doing and thought the world of these guys in this law firm until the day it all changed for the worse. Accidents happened not once but twice that caused damage to my spine and various other health issues in the storeroom where legal cardboard boxes had been placed on make shift shelving. The wood was not smooth, but rough.
The boxes were piled up high on the shelving, while in front of the shelving other boxes were piled high on the floor. There was a conference table in the middle of the storeroom, where it was used for looking through the boxes to make sure you had the right information.
On these two particular days I had been sent down to get specific files, but of course they had been put on the tallest shelf and on the bottom of 3 others stacked on top of it. I used a very shaking and unstable ladder to reach these boxes, only to have the box get caught in the rough wood catching on the cardboard. The only thing I could do was pull the box and pull. While doing all of this the ladder was swaying to and fro, The box would not come, and without thinking I took my hand off of the structure of shelves applying both hands on to the box to give it one last yank, when the ladder swayed throwing me off.
I fell from a height striking the conference table corner with my back in two spots, then fell hard to the floor sticking my head on the cement as the ladder fell down on me striking me on the head and left arm/side. In all of this commotion all the boxes fall down on top of me a well, burying me .
I must have blacked out, because when I came to I saw an angel telling me to get up. It was a white light. It was so hard to do because I was buried under all these heavy things, and my head hurt so bad. I started to move and found severe pain in my back as I raised my head it was throbbing and I was dizzy.
It was hard to focus on getting out from under all of that. Finally when I did, I went up to the office to report it, then went down to the restroom to see the damage and how bad it was. I had a cut and bump on my head, bruises on my arm and side. My face and clothes were dirty and I looked a mess. I cleaned myself back up and went back to the office going to the main attorney’s sectary to let her know that I needed to talk to the head attorney about getting immediate medical attention. She went in and told him, but he was in a meeting with the other partners of the firm and would have to get back to me.
Half a day went by as I tried to do my work, then time came for me to go home. I don’t know how I did it, but I actually drove home and got into bed. Why didn’t I go to emergency help? We were told it had to be approved by the partners. The next day when I woke up, I had slept without eating or changing my clothes, I felt I had a concussion, so I got myself ready to go into work and tell them again I needed immediate medical help. Again I was stalled around.
Well not to bore you with the continuation of a long drawn out true story, I lost my job there because I was having physical health problems. Finally my condition got so bad that I took matters into my own hands and went to a doctor.
It was the law firms business decision not to help me with the medical problems, in fact not even have any paper work such as workers comp filed, but to just get rid of me any way they could. Why you ask, because I needed medical care that was going to cost them some money and they didn’t want to have to pay. I wasn’t going to go after them but just asked them for helping in paying the medical bills that were incurred as the results of the two similar accidents.
My request was denied by this law firm, and I found myself trying to work a part time job through a temporary job service, but my condition got worse and worse physically. I was vomiting up blood, and bleeding all the time, the pain was so bad all I could do was scream and cry out in pain. I had to have surgery for internal damage that had been done, but the severity of the fall and accidents caused damage to my spine in 2 areas that were causing severe pain.
I finally sought medical advice in another state, and the specialist told me that my condition would never improve and I would be bedridden and in a wheelchair, being taking care of the rest of my life in assisted living. I was too young, why did this happen to me, my life was just begining. That is when my life I worked so hard, all my dreams and goals had been ripped away from me stollen by this law firm. No one would help me, I had no where to turn. All I could think of was my 3 little children, how would we manage on our own as a single parent.
God heard my prayer and I was visited by Archangel Michael I was crying so hard from the pain that I wanted the pain to end. We talked a few minutes, then he touched me. In his touch a current not unlike a bolt of electricity had shot through me. I went on conscious and into a deep sleep. The next day, when I woke up I was in severe pain and still couldn’t move, when a voice said get up and go outside. As I was getting myself up and getting dressed the pain was so intense but I did what I was told. When I got out side I was told to walk the two small dogs I had. As I tried to walk the pain shot throughout my body making it so painful and hard.
I had tears streaming down my face with every movement, but I was doing it on my own. I walked down to the green grassy area by the small lake. What took most people 10 minutes to walk, it was almost 30 min for me. With each step the pain eased but did not go completely away which leads us up to today.
All of this happened for a reason and I was thrusted out into the limelight in the use of my gifts and abilities. This is what God had wanted and the path He directed me to as I was told so long ago by the angels in my near death experience of drowning of events that would change my life and things I would be doing. So to make a long story short this is where my story of my life ended and a new chapter of a totally different person began.